To be honest

That's sort of what being a Christian is all about. At least that is what i think hearing the truth even when it does not always sound real nice, or it's not what you want to hear.
But here is my truth sessions. I remembered the other day i had my blog floating around out there. Though most of the time i think i write just to hear myself think, but it does help to get a few things off my chest.
I haven't really thought about it much because i have been in a slump, not sure why i guess it's probably a lot of little things that have all become one great big thing. It's big because it has kept me from Pursuing Christ, the one thing this was intended to be in the first place.
Well i didn't step away completely but i step away far enough away i couldn't really hear his voice anymore.
So here i am in my heart trying to find my way back and in my mind just really resisting the pursuit.
My husband called me the other day he says go into the back room i got you something today call me when you find it. In a brown paper bag was a book. One of my Favorite Authors Max Lucado "No Wonder They Call Him Savior". Funny thing about that is i was having one of those talks with God, the ones you have but pretend you are really not having your just throwing stuff out there in hopes that maybe you listen to yourself. I was saying i think what i really need is a good book, to give me a wake up call. Well isn't that just like God to give you what you need, not what you want. Of course i have to open it. Mostly because i decided a long time ago that was the only way i really listened to what God was trying to tell me. My mom started it so i will blame her. She would read a book or hear about one she thought would give us our wake up call. She would drop it off, i would read it just out of respect. I always got something out of them.
I am sure that i will be writing more now, and even more sure God will give me a good old lesson in humility and grace, because i think those are the two things i have been laking.
Hey i am a servant of God, i am nowhere near perfect. I guess i never will be not here in this life time anyways. I will get back to you.