Hope For Today

Habakkuk 3:18-19 Yet i will rejoice in the Lord, I will be joyful in God my Savior. The Sovereign Lord is my strength he makes my feet like the feet of a deer, he enables me to go on the heights. For the director of music. On my stringed instruments.

Yesterday was a bad day, Adam is working until they tell him other wise. He is on new medicine, that is making him feel less than himself these days. Chantix to quit smoking. He had a run to Michigan he left at 6:00 am and did not return until 12:00 am.
I could tell in his voice every time i talked to him that he was not feeling well, he did not take time out to eat.I kept saying over and over again. Lord how will we get through this. 1 week ago he would have begged for a trip like he had yesterday. Almost like over night the bottom has dropped out from under us. At least it feels like it.
So when i thought the day could not get any worse, we loaded up the only car we have now got out to my in laws, and the something was terribly wrong with the car. It sounded like it could have been the transmission, or the rear end was falling out. I think at that point i lost it, what else could go wrong.
This morning i called trust worthy Bill at the Service Station here in town and Thank God it was a busted u bolt. I can live with that.
Yesterday it was all i could think of.
So when i woke up this morning and my Bible opened up to this familiar passage. I read a note i wrote to myself more than a year ago. " In spite of the circumstances, remain faithful and rest in the fact God is in control, no matter what."
I know God will not put on us anymore than we can handle, i know that. It's the only thing i have to hold on to. Faith that we will get through today no matter how rough it gets, and tomorrow will bring a new and different day.
My friends and family surround us. Just as i always knew they would. The unknowing and the fears for today and tomorrow melt away.
I lay in bed and think what will we do, if Adam is not with us next year. How will the girls go through life, with out their Daddy at their side. I am so broken.i know i should be thinking hopeful thoughts. It's hard to not think about it.
What ever happens God will bring us through.

Hope For A New Day

Isaiah 14:32 What answer shall be given to the envoys of that nation? The Lord has established Zion, and in her his afflicted people will find refuge.

I want to really dig deep into this scripture, i have many afflicted around me. We found out on Thursday that there is a 95% chance my husband has Bladder Cancer. You put things into perspective when you get news like that. Two years ago my sister was diagnosed with a rare skin disorder. Terminal that's what they told us a year ago. That gives you an idea of why this Scripture means so much to me.
So i went in to the all trusty dictionary to find words that would bring this Scripture to a whole new level.So here it is what this scripture means to me.

What answer shall be given to the doctor's of this nation? The Lord will prove through the afflicted of the world they have refuge.

As i went through finding other words to bring more light to the scripture, it was made very apparent to me that our afflicted could be anyone. It does not have to be the ill or bed ridden. What about the people who are drug addicted. Afflicted by depression or families are afflicted by pain and anger. God says in this verse a nation of afflicted will find refuge. I hold firm to that promise, with the unknowing of tomorrow and what it will bring what do i have to loose. It's easier to get angry with God and blame him, for all that happens but it's more rewarding to step out of the comfort zone and trust that no matter what will come we will be stronger and better people for it no matter what it is.
What do we have to loose we have nothing to loose, or do we? We loose out on faith for just another day, growth from yesterday and one step closer to God who loves us, who has done so much already for us. He gave us his only son so that we could be forgiven of our sinful nature, we fall short of that Cross everyday, or at least i know that i do.
So after a long much needed conversation with my mother this early afternoon, through God she confirmed this passage to me by a scripture that God showed her Isaiah 41:10 i will let you read that one for your self. The work of God is at hand.
He may not heal those suffering with illness, but he does change lives through the illness.
I just lost a friend last Friday to Lung Cancer, she was dear friend her sister and i were best friends and ran around while we were in High School together. Over the years i have seen great suffering in my friend, drugs and alcohol controlled many of her adult years. Soon before Sandy was diagnosed my friend got saved while attending church with Sandy, i remember getting the news i cried and praised Jesus. The more sick Sandy got my friend and i had many conversation about how she would deal with her lose. Scared the only way she could deal with her lose was to go back the only way she always knew. God has proved very faithful, she has maintained her sobriety though she misses her sister dearly, she makes it through day by day. I am certain their are times she goes minute by minute. I called her yesterday with the news of my husband the first thing she said was i will call my pastor and we will put him on the prayer chain. Her strength comes from God.
God says he will never give us more than we can handle.