How has God changed your life

Have you ever awaken wandering not what today will bring, but how God will change your life?
It seems to me anymore that life is more than just getting through the day, it’s more like what will God do today? I believe it’s not what we make it but more like how much will we allow him to change it, no matter what comes our way and instead of standing tall with our hands crossed waiting to resist the force to break through we try to stop the inevitable. That use to be me. It was more like that stance of a line backer, trying to keep the defense out so the quarterback could score the touch down. If that’s how it goes, funny for a women who’s husband lives and breathes football I would know more about it, but I always try to either find something else to do on Monday night football, or I just hide.
I sort of woke up one day with no choice. God gave me something I could not fix myself no matter how I hard I tried to resist or how much I tried to pretend it never happened. There was no denying what really happened. I had to except it sooner or later, and what was even harder was to except I could not change it or fix it. I had to allow God to create something beautiful out of it. He was going to do that no matter how hard I tried to resist, it was going to happen, the real question was how long was I going to allow it to eat away at me. The longer I would resist his love and tender mercy, the longer it would take for me to heal, for my family to heal. We had to move on the quicker the better.
It took me a year to realize that, an entire year wasted on self-pity and self-destruction. You see this is what happened, my daughter had a bicycle accident she was 10 at the time, my oldest daughter. We have two, she was sure it was broke and well I could not believe that by falling of a bike it would break your leg. I have to say she was right and well she still reminds me she was right and I was wrong.

I took her to the ER the next morning, sure enough a fracture, where they could not tell. They refereed us to the local specialist, he could not tell either where the break was, I think it was more about he was leaving for vacation, he really did not have the time. You see that is how God works because that doctor he passed away while he was on vacation and he wanted her to go into surgery, arthroscopic to be exact to fish around in there and see exactly what it was all about. God was working harder than I could ever know. We were refereed to a local Children’s Hospital. A doctor there saw her. He knew exactly where the fracture was, but unsure of the damage. She went down for x-rays, and while there a man sexually fondled her. That was when our lives changed forever. She told me 12 days later and it was the beginning of the rest of my life. Like most mothers I fell a part , I got angry with God and the only conversations we had after that day was me blaming him.I yelled and cried a lot. Most days I just would wish it was a horrible nightmare and I could just wake up. My husband lost his job, after that. I think more because he could not stand not being at home. You see he would have gone to the hospital that day, but he had to work. He never said it but I think as much as I blamed myself he was blaming himself just as much.

When I finally woke up out of my denial and self-pity, I saw how God was there all long he was in control of what I thought I had worked so hard to keep away from him. You know it’s us living God’s life, all for the glory of him. He was there all along while he did not allow that to happen to my little girl, he did allow it to change lives of those who came in contact with her along the way. Her love and strength for God never changed, she crawled right into the arms of her savior and sat there. I believe she still sits there today. When we started her in counseling, God provided for her the most wonderful young Christian women we could ask for, they just clicked since then she has stepped down from her job, to work closer to her home, and her and my daughter still stay connected through e-mails. Lexi has grown, she doesn’t stop we are so proud of her.
Where do we go from here the only place we can go. You put all your faith and trust in God, know that he is in control, total control. I could not have gotten through this with out my faith in God, I pray that I only move forward from here. You know life can be funny in a way, we spend all our time investing in things that should not really matter, like money, things (homes, cars, etc..) then at the end of the day we are still not happy, I think I have found out why.
We invest so much time into us instead of God and searching the path for what he has created us to do, that’s peace I think even if you don’t figure it out, just trying is working for God. My life has changed from what I thought as a little girl it would be, I cannot remember my early dreams I suppose they were like any other little girls dreams a nice house and a wonderful husband a couple of kids. There is happiness, I chuckle inside, lets see I had to work real hard for the wonderful marriage (don’t we all) we still have not achieved the house, the children were the simplest of tasks, but raising them is harder than trying to make a marriage work. I would not change it, because I am living my life for God, I wake in the morning thanking him for the day, asking him for grace to get through it. Nothing is more beautiful to me than feeling the anticipation of wanting to know more about God, and waiting for him to show me the next thing.

I’ll use an old friend here I know she won’t mind, I have a friend we went to school together we didn’t always hang out but we lived in the same small town around 600 population maybe less than that. She was my moral lets say when I was out running around doing the awful things I would be doing there she was with moral advise I never listened, I heard though sometimes I would think to myself will she ever do anything wrong, she wasn’t perfect no one is. Since then she has been married moved off to Michigan were she now has two children. The day I got saved she was the first person I wanted to tell. In fact I did, one Saturday afternoon I suppose, I drove over to her parents where she still lived, she wasn’t home but her mom answered the door. I shared the good news with her, I later saw Lori and she said when her mom told her she cried, I realized that day how important loving God and following him was.

In the next couple of years Lori’s mom passed away due to cancer. We rallied around her a small group of us went out for lunch just to let her know we were there for her. I recalled her telling me about the rainbow she had seen just after her mother passed away. I was reminded of that rainbow last week. My friend confirmed with me what she thought God meant by that rainbow, sharing that story with Lori this week confirmed God was the reason for our friendship after all these years, and our reconnection. He never stops confirming and loving I think we have to keep our eyes opened wide and watching for it.
Keep your eyes on the sky what ever you do don’t miss the rainbow. Let it remind you God is still in control.

Something Real

I don't want to make this whole thing controversial or anything but god put something on my heart this week and i really feel the need to share it. I am not going to call anyone out or call out any certain type of Belief because i feel like this can really address us all and we know who we are and if God is speaking to certain people they will know, i am only the messenger, i do not take any credit for what is posted it all things I feel like God has put on my heart to share so hear goes.... Earlier this week i was talking with a friend of mine, she was raised in a strict congregation just as i was growing up the difference between her and i was that by the time i was 10 my family had gotten away from the church she was raised in the church all the while she was growing up, she did not say when she left the church i am only assuming it was after she was much older maybe even in her adult years.

Many Churches are still teaching from the Old Testament don't get me wrong it is a great part of the Bible all parts of the Bible come together to make it what it is God's law for us to live by and learn by. But we tend to some of us to stay right there in the Law of Moses. It was hard for them, but we don't go out further, after Christ came along he saved us from that law that was so hard for Moses' people to live by, i am not saying go out there and do what ever you want it's OK Christ saved us. What i am saying is this By Grace we are healed from thinking that God will strike us down for so much as looking the wrong way. Christ paid the ultimate Sacrifice for us so that by his grace we are healed of all of our wrong doing. We are suppose to celebrate his love celebrate his resurrection celebrate when someone is Baptised or Reborn by the Blood of Christ.
If you are going to church and you do not feel an overwhelming feeling to celebrate then maybe just maybe there is something more. The love of God does not bring fear but love and understanding. It's like a well that is overflowing within us we can't help but to tell someone about what God has done for us.
If you feel like something is missing you love Go with all your heart but there is just something missing let me invite you into a real personal relationship with Christ, God Our Father. He loves you so much that he wants you to shout it from the roof tops, he does not want you to sit in silence and fear but to rejoice in Him and bring others to the love that is so filling and abundant that you don't need anything else. Seek his guidance he will come and rescue you from the slumber and fear you may have found your self in.

I Love You, Through Christ The Son

What's Our Worth

Philippians 3:21 Who, by the power that enables to bring everything under his control, will transform our lowly bodies so that they will be like his glorious body.

I had a trip yesterday i spent all day at a state reserve i guess you would call it, it's a large wet land area not far from where we live the college students at our nearby college take care of the area . Anyways This scripture sort of fell in my lap, as i sat in my bus taking in the sounds of the nature i read this scripture and it really spoke to me, a God who controls everything and with the power to control how we feel about him, gave it up and gave us the freedom to choose or reject him. I understand i often thought how much easier it would have been if he just told us the way it is suppose to be love him. Then i thought i would not want my children to love me just because i am their mother i want them to love me from their heart because of how i provide for them and show them love first. God is really no different then us. Then to take it one step further we are rewarded for loving him he takes our once selfish, narrow minded, self centered and turns it into something that draws people to us, and he is not even done with just that when the time comes and our time is done here we are carried away to a much better place he has prepared for us and then given a glorious body, i don't know about you but my body right now is getting a little worn out, i am over weight, the few years i carried a child took it's toll on me with an out of line back, i am just starting to feel the years i have abused and neglected it. A new body it's a pretty cool concept for me.

I have chose to seek the love of Christ all of my days.

One Day At A Time

Zephaniah 3:17 The Lord your God is with you, he is mighty to save. He will take great delight in you, he will quite you with his love, he will rejoice over you with singing.

I encourage you to read each word in this passage stopping after each word putting great thought into each word. OK we know God is with us, but do we really think about it everyday he is with us never leaving our side. Mighty( that word to me symbolizes strength, huge)God puts the meaning in MIGHTY. I never thought anyone delighted in me, my God does he is always with me because he enjoys being at my side. When we focus all of our thoughts on God alone he quites us in His very presence, when we raise up to join God in His very presence we can not even speak because of mighty presence, he sings will we are in complete awe of him. Picture God singing for no reason other than he knows we have taken delight in him so much so we are speechless. I think Zephaniah he got it his book is short because he spent much time in God's presence he did not have much to say but what he did say you can put much thought in it.

Have a great weekend filled with the presence of God.