Transparency

Transparency the definition goes something like this.... viewed by light shining through it or by projection.

The definition is taken from the word picture. If we think about it we are suppose to be just as that a picture of What God looks like, his very image should been seen through us. As the definition reads viewed by the light shining through. The light of God shining through us. I have to admit that light has not always been so bright, lately it has been pretty dime. As i have said many times i am not perfect, guess i will never be perfect either, i stumble and fall more than i stand up straight and allow the light of God to illuminate me. We may all have a story similar to the same.
I picked up this book last week called Transparent, it's about getting honest about who we are and who we want to be. The title alone spoke to me. If anyone needs to get honest about who they are it's me. I will admit it, i have fallen so far out of the grips of God that even i shock myself at times. I just keep telling myself if i could only figure out when it all went wrong where i got of the path at i can go back to that point and take up where i left off. But... it does not work like that even our very failures are a learning experience created by God, so right where i stand i reach down and pick up the cross i have been dragging behind me and start carrying it again. That's what God expects right.
One the front of this book is a hand bag like that of one i use to own. it's made of clear plastic, seeing clearly the contents that are inside the bag. We are kind of like that, even when we are trying to hide behind this image or facade people see through that. We are always up for display whether we choose to be or not. We may think we are hiding but in fact everyone especially God sees us we can not hide.
Now that my girls are both in Junior High i see how complicated things are going to get. Solving problems of disagreements between girlfriends are going to be a thing of the past, to be honest i am not ready for all the other side of life's disappointments. I can not protect them forever, no matter how hard i try. It's now when life takes the that turn the one we can't prevent it's when you grab the bar and just hold on for dear life until the ride is over. It's what scares me the most will everything i have taught them this far carry them through this difficult time? I can only hope and pray. I will let you know though how that works out for me.

I am going to pick up where i left off some months ago though, it does not matter where i have been since then it only matters where i go from here, that the light of Gods shines bright through me.

Lord... Forgive me for my sins, forgive me for dropping my cross behind me and dragging it in stead of carrying it over my shoulder all this time. I know you have never left my side i have just forgotten to look over and acknowledge you. If only you can help me remove the clutter from my life so that the your light can clearly shine through me and not bounce off all the things i have let get between you and me.